Book Giveaway: November 9 by Colleen Hoover


“I want to make sure I know who I am and what I want out of life before I allow myself to fall in love. Because it’s easy to fall in love, Ben. The hard part comes when you want out.”
Last November 10, 2015, the Official Release date of November 9 by Colleen Hoover just went out in bookstores! For the record, I am doing an INTERNATIONAL GIVEAWAY!

First things first, I don’t have any expectations with November 9 because, honestly, I was really disappointed with Confess. It’s not that I hate the book or what, I love the concept but I know when books and my soul are one. And this time, Colleen Hoover, with her newly released book November 9, doesn’t just made it into my soul, it went into everything I had and every being I am.

“When you find love, you take it. You grab it with both hands and you do everything in your power not to let it go. You can’t just walk away from it and expect it to linger until you’re ready for it.”

It was really awesome how she came up with ideas and how twisted and fucked up her plots. It’s not just a romance, it’s a freaking life — that’s what she write, a reality that must have been existing out there, God knows where is it.. November 9 is not like a Colleen Hoover writing style. I know her writing style, I live with those words and phrases but I like the way how she wrote November 9 and it is amazing that in a single sentence, I am already hooked into reading. If it ain’t for school, I won’t stop reading her book. It took me 2 days to finish it, most of the times, I usually finish her book in a day but I learn to absorb every detail, every word, every pain that she throws at her readers. I don’t really mind. Because I love everything she write.

“I need you to know that it was always you who had my heart. And I would have never let anyone else borrow it if I knew there was a chance in hell you’d ever want it back.”

November 9 is a story about Fallon, who is scarred literally in inside and outside — She is a reader who was once a rising star and unfortunately, an accident happen or was it? It changes everything in her life. People look at her because she is gifted physically but when things doesn’t go in your way, people avoid to look at you because they are shame that they offended you by just looking at you. Doesn’t it make sense?

A writer who made her feel special came into her life. Maybe, at this point, you are thinking that this novel is like every romance novel you read. Boy meets girl. Instant Love. No. I don’t think so. Even if it is. Confusing right? It was Ben. Ben who changes every aspect of her life — to look on different angle and don’t listen to those who discourages you on the path you wanted to choose. It takes a lot of self control and years for their relationship to build. Its hard to express each other feelings when they aren’t sure if what they are doing will fall into its place. Ben and Fallon are two people who find themselves through the years, along the journey, they find the love that blooms shorter than they thought.

“Because when you love someone, you owe it to them to help them be the best version of themselves that they can be. And as much as it crushes me to admit this, the best version of you doesn’t include me.”

So, here it goes. The story of the two people starts on November 9. Everything about their life is about that date. Every year, same day, same restaurant, same place, same time — they will meet. They will go on with their own lives and meet as if they are in a relationship every freaking goddamnit November 9. From this point, I don’t have any ideas what could happen on those days, on those November 9s that they could have. It was a roller coaster, feelings are over flowing, emotions are suffocating, predictions are exploding, I don’t know what to think. I am reading this book and I am totally devastated. This book is better — and the freaking letter, the freaking manuscript and the freaking life they both have.

I admit, I cried in a few pages of this book because it’s just so painful that I need to let go of it. Every word the characters throwing off feels like real, every thoughts that I am going to read seems like real, I don’t know. It was like I’m diving in a cold and deep pool and I swim for so long that I get exhausted that I wanted to stop but I couldn’t stop because I either drown and have life its way on me or save myself up. It’s amazing!

“Just because he chose not to show you his scars doesn’t mean they don’t exist.”

I’m totally placing this book on to 2nd place among Colleen Hoover’s Novels. Definitely worth having and worth reading.

Under this review, don’t forget to join my international giveaway of November 9 with Signed Book Plate! The Giveaway ends on December 1, 2015!

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Book Tag: “Would You Rather”


Okay, I was tagged by Erika; The Royal Nocturnal Fey to do the “Would You Rather Tag”. The tag was originated by Rachel Reads and I’m going to do it! If you already reading this, you are now obliged to do this book tag! I don’t have that much friends (I’m not loner, okay?) in book blogging world. So, I AM TAGGING ALL OF YOU.

  • Read only Trilogies or Stand-Alones?

I don’t care whether it is a Trilogy, Series or a Stand-Alone. I judged the book by the author’s writing style. I have to blend with their thoughts, I have to adjust and adapt with their words as if every phrase has its life. I want that kind of book, that’s what makes a good book for me. Every book has its own story, aside from the author’s writing style I would love to add as a factor is the plot. I want amazing plots, good character development, awesome world build up — I love foreshadowing! Whether the book is a Trilogy or a Stand-Alone, I don’t care. It’s just have to be worthy of my attention.

  • Read only Female or Male Authors?

I love reading books with Male Point of Views because unintentionally, I ended up reading books with Female Authors. Maybe, there are just a huge quantity of female authors out there or I haven’t discovered those Male Authors who are hiding somewhere the darkness. I love fantasy books and most of my owned books are authored by female. I don’t now but I have a huge amount of amazing female authors and I have little amount of male authors that can be found on my list. It would be awesome if there are Male Authors who write in perspective of a masculine and it is fantasy! Do you know some? Recommend me! I would love it!

  • Shop at Barnes & Noble or Amazon?

Never tried shopping on Barnes & Noble neither Amazon. I just stalk the websites only and let the temptation flow into my veins. Erika and I have a friend in the US which helps us to buy books that are only available or cheaper on abroad.  She really a blessing because if there’s no a friend like her, we — or maybe I am already dying on envy and jealousy, probably, dying too , literally. Because books are goddamn expensive here in the Philippines!

  • All books become Movies or TV shows?

Nope. Nope. Nope. As much as I like my favorite books turn into fantastical and magical adaptations, I have to say NO. There’s no way, I will allow books to turn into Movie or in a TV Show. Lesson learned. Hunger games? Naah. Divergent? Naah. Ender’s Game? Naah. and the fucking PERCY JACKSON! I’m not risking it. EXCEPT if there’s a 100% chance that the producer and the director and the casting and everything I imagine is going to be in the big screen. Otherwise, No-freaking-way.

  • Read 5 pages per day or 5 books per week?

As much as I want to read 5 days per week, I can’t. There’s Officer duties, Academic Studies, Friendship commitments, Hangouts and Everything. So far, the fastest reading time that ever recorded in the history of my life is 3 books per day but I haven’t tried it again because of life. Been busy lately and I haven’t got that much reading. I wanted to but everything falls in the place and at the end of the day, most of the times, I can’t read because of exhaustion. 5 pages per day? NO WAY. I can take 5 chapters a day but 5 pages? NO. NO. NO. I’m not a masochist to torture myself and read 5 pages, its like teasing the love of life.

  • Be a professional reviewer or author?

Both! I always wanted to be an author and a professional reviewer! How awesome it would be to receive few ARCs while writing your own book and going to booksignings of your own! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?

  • Only read your top 20 favorite books over and over or always read new ones that you haven’t read before?

Always read new ones that I haven’t read before! I have top books on my mind but I don’t want to stick with them. With my favorite genre, fantasy? It is so wide that I wanted to discover and travel and explore everything.

  • Be a Librarian or Book Seller?

I like the thought of being a Librarian but I don’t want to stuck there sitting and reading. I love to travel a lot so I’m going for Book Seller!

  • Only read your Favorite Genre, or Every Genre except your Favorite?

I’m choosing read my favorite genre! I have a wide of favorite and if you would turn this up side down, I very much read everything except classic. So… If I chose Every genre except your Favorite, it would be like, “Read every classic.”, that’s it. Just Classic. AND NO WAY IN HELL THAT I’M GOING TO READ CLASSIC. Its not my genre, Sorry!

  • Only read Physical books or eBooks?

Both! I prefer Physical Books but eBooks makes me a fast reader. Ebooks are convenient since you don’t have to bring your book and put it on your bag and taking up some space. But as a reader, you really don’t mind, to bring a book. Its just a matter of preference in different time. When you are home, you will choose Physical Books over eBooks, right? But when you are outside, you prefer to read on eBooks. Either way, it depends on the people, for me, I do both! If I don’t have money, go for eBook. If I have, I’m going to own the bookstore! If it is dark, I will be reading on my eReader, if I have free time, I will choose Physical copies than my eBooks. Either way, it depends on my mood.

Thank you for tagging me Erika! I will try to tag few followers that I have to do this tag!

John Michael; Book Freak Revelations

Aby; The Bibliophile Who Lost in Her Books

Jam; Heart Scent Reads

Marian; Dear Maw

Angela; The Geeky Auror

Twitter Chat with Romina Russell! #AskRominaR


“At the dawn of time, there were 13 Houses in the Zodiac Galaxy. Now only 12 remain….

Rhoma Grace is a 16-year-old student from House Cancer with an unusual way of reading the stars. While her classmates use measurements to make accurate astrological predictions, Rho can’t solve for ‘x’ to save her life—so instead, she looks up at the night sky and makes up stories.

When a violent blast strikes the moons of Cancer, sending its ocean planet off-kilter and killing thousands of citizens—including its beloved Guardian—Rho is more surprised than anyone when she is named the House’s new leader. But, a true Cancrian who loves her home fiercely and will protect her people no matter what, Rho accepts.

Then, when more Houses fall victim to freak weather catastrophes, Rho starts seeing a pattern in the stars. She suspects Ophiuchus—the exiled 13th Guardian of Zodiac legend—has returned to exact his revenge across the Galaxy. Now Rho—along with Hysan Dax, a young envoy from House Libra, and Mathias, her guide and a member of her Royal Guard—must travel through the Zodiac to warn the other Guardians.

But who will believe anything this young novice says? Whom can Rho trust in a universe defined by differences? And how can she convince twelve worlds to unite as one Zodiac?

Embark on a dazzling journey with ZODIAC, the first novel in an epic sci-fi-meets-high-fantasy series set in a galaxy inspired by the astrological signs.”


  • She’s working in a new Manuscript other than the Zodiac Series! She’s writing it for like 10 years and hopefully it will come next! I can’t wait!
  • Advice for starting a Science Fiction project: I recommend building your universe first, before populating it. Alan Watts once said “We’re not born into this world, we’re born from it. I think we need to understand our world to understand its characters.”
  • has 34 inhabited planets, so I don’t like playing favorites! But I will say that Centaurion of rocks! And I hate it that I didn’t have the chance to ask WHY?! 
  • “I like a busy environment for writing, so while sometimes music works, often I actually need the TV on! LOL” -@RominaRussell
  • Q: What do you love in building the world of Zodiac?

“One of my favorite parts of writing is dreaming up new worlds–I love every part of it! From determining the scientific properties of a planet, to deciding who its people are, what its technology is like, who governs them, what they believe, what they’d fight for, how they use language, what they value, and so on! (Sorry for geeking out…!!!)”

  • Q: What was your favorite part about writing a sequel?

“I loved writing the sequel–much more than writing the first book! It felt like visiting a place I love + checking in w/ friends!”

I am already anticipating Wandering Star right now, I hate you and I love you at the same time! Release the book like, right now! I’m dying to read it!

“It’s one of our greatest human flaws: arrogance. We look up and dare to assume we know, when the universe is unknowable.” – Hysan

  • Q: How many books are you intending to write for ? I’m actually expecting it to be 12 or 13 books. ❤

“I think I could write any number of books set in the galaxy, but at the moment I’ve been contracted for just 3! ;)”

Why just three?!!!!! WHYYY?!

  • Q: Is there a character you do not like writing?

“There is no character I don’t like writing–whenever I get bored w/them, I can just kill them off! (JK!!! Kinda…)”

  • Q: Both of your book covers are beautiful! Did you have any input when it came to cover design?

“I LOVE MY COVERS!!! The designer, Vanessa Han, is a goddess! I didn’t give input on ‘s cover–b/c it’s perfect! But I did give input on an earlier draft of ‘s cover, and it was super cool to be part of that process!”

Yes, Both covers are freaking gorgeous! 

“It’s hard being pushed into a role that defines you before you’ve had a chance to define yourself.” -Hysan

  • Q: What does a typical writing day look like?

“My writing day starts w/me waking up at 5:30 am (sans alarm clock); it progresses w/me jumping on Twitter, Insta, FB then I spend the rest of the morning trying to decipher the notes I scribbled to myself, half-asleep, the night before my word count varies dramatically day to day, and it gradually peters out, until I get a second wind at nighttime!”

  • Q: What was the hardest part in writing Zodiac?

“The hardest part of writing was resisting the urge to write a perfect protagonist. I knew I would be just as hated as Rho was by the Plenum for certain decisions that Rho makes! But I had to be OK w/ letting her be REAL. Like Rho, I had to trust myself!”

  • Q: Was writing something you always loved doing?

“I fell in love with words when I was 9 years old, + I have yet to discover anything in the world that I love more.”

  • Q: Would you like to write about other genre like new adult?

“YES, I would absolutely like to write a new adult novel! I think my 1st ms–which I wrote in college–is NA, and I’d love to return to it one day!”

My friends who like New Adult will love that New Adult book of yours! Published it already! 

  • Q: What was one of the most surprising things you learned in creating your books?

“In working on Z, I was surprised to learn that characters I created could surprise me.”

  • Q: Why did you choose a female protagonist and not a male protagonist?

“I chose to write a female protagonist b/c I think women often have a harder time making our voices heard than men.”

  • Romina doesn’t read while she write. She can watch TV or movies, but she won’t read until she’s done.
  • Three words to describe Wandering Star: Introspective, Adventurous, and Heartbreaking.
  • Q: What advice do you have for participants who are going through self-doubts as writers?

“If you’re doubting yourself as a writer, I’ll tell you what a CP of mine told me when I was ready to walk away

She said, “If I could guarantee you’ll be published one day, what would you be doing now?” I said, “writing.”

For those who haven’t read #Zodiac…

  • Q: I haven’t read your books [YET], but what can I expect going into them?

“If you pick up #ZODIAC, you’re in for a road trip through Space, a Big Bad who’s untouchable (literally) and teen characters who have to learn to silence the voices of the adults around them in order to trust their own.”


(Photo Courtesy: Google)

“Orphaned, disgraced, and stripped of her title, Rho is ready to live life quietly, as an aid worker in the Cancrian refugee camp on House Capricorn.

But news has spread that the Marad–an unbalanced terrorist group determined to overturn harmony in the Galaxy–could strike any House at any moment.

Then, unwelcome nightmare that he is, Ochus appears to Rho, bearing a cryptic message that leaves her with no choice but to fight.

Now Rho must embark on a high-stakes journey through an all-new set of Houses, where she discovers that there’s much more to her Galaxy–and to herself–than she could have ever imagined.”



(Photo Courtesy: Google)


“Romina Russell is a Los Angeles based author who originally hails from Buenos Aires, Argentina. As a teen, Romina landed her first writing gig—College She Wrote, a weekly Sunday column for the Miami Herald that was later picked up for national syndication—and she hasn’t stopped writing since. When she’s not working on the ZODIAC series, Romina can be found producing movie trailers, taking photographs, or daydreaming about buying a new drum set. She is a Virgo to the core.”


Book Review: Queen of Shadows by Sarah J. Maas

18006496I was on Goodreads and trying to read some of my friends’ reviews on Queen of Shadows by Sarah J. Maas and I was like, “What the hell?!”, you rated the book 3.5 stars! THREE POINT FIVE FREAKING STARS!!! I know people have their own choices and taste of books but 3POINT5 STARS IS BEYOND RUDE. You cannot go wrong with Sarah J. Maas, I am rating this book 5 stars!


Let’s start with the title, “Queen of Shadows”, for all the readers of Sarah J. Maas who patiently waiting every year for another book as we all know there is a reason why the title is Queen of Shadows and for those who haven’t read Queen of Shadows, probably by now, you already have an idea why was the title, entitled as Queen of shadows, right?

“But they held tighter to each other, past and present and future; flickering between an ancient hall in a mountain castle perched above Orynth, a bridge suspended between glass towers, and another place, perfect and strange, where they had been crafted from stardust and light. A wall of night knocked them back. But they could not be contained. The darkness paused for breath. They erupted.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

Celaena, Lilian, and Aelin, three different names but one character, the fire-breathing bitch queen, came back to Adarlan. Comparing her from her previous self. She was now wiser than before, fiercer and tease! Reading the first three chapters of the book, it is so painful that I don’t know if I’m going to continue reading the book or not. I am a shipper of Aelin and Dorian but things are not doing well on both sides and there’s Chaol shippers, whom I believe have high hopes from Crown of Midnight and there are those who ship Aelin to Rowan from Heir of Fire. First things first. I was predicting that Celaena will go back to Adarlan and reunited with Chaol (I don’t know, I am a Dorian shipper but partly, I was hoping that they end up together at the beginning of the book) in which did happen but not the way the readers are expecting to.

“They were infinite. They were the beginning and the ending; they were eternity. The king standing before them gaped as the shield of flame died out to reveal Aelin and Dorian, hand in hand, glowing like newborn gods as their magic entwined.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

“Dorian looked at the carpet, at all the threads woven together. ‘What do I do now?’ They were gone: the woman he’d loved–and the man he hated. He met her stare. No calculation, no coldness, no pity in those turquoise eyes. Just unflinching honesty, as there had been from the very start with her. ‘What do I do?’

She had to swallow before she said. ‘You light up the darkness.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

“Dorian, we get to come back from this loss – from this darkness. We get to come back, and I came back for you.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

For all the readers who are Dorian shippers like me will be in pain when reading his thoughts, it was like diving and drowning and suffocating into darkness – haunting by the past, blood, and fear. Tearing apart every smiles and laughter and sucking every memory that you are holding into. That’s what I felt when I was reading his chapters. It was painful but the hope was still there – hoping that he could go back, that he could save – that he could end up with Aelin, the Queen of Terrasen.

“My name is Aelin Ashryver Galathynius. And I am the Queen of Terrasen.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

“His name was Dorian.
Dorian Havillard, and he was the Crown Prince of Adarlan.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

What I love about this book is that the character’s development, in each every individual character she had, you can see their development. How wiser Aelin became, how loyal and trustful Rowan is, how Aedion matures, how Manon sees the real Dorian, how Chaol changes and how Aelin plots every action carefully that you will hold your breath. It’s good that there’s a character change in this book, Lysandra, as we hate her in the previous books, you will like her better now.

And there’s a new character! Elide! Elide is a half Fae and half Blackbeak witch, I believe Maas is introducing her because she will have a major role on her next books and here I am predicting that Elide maybe the one who will reunite Fae and Witches – who knows but that theory won’t hurt right? The twist and everything on this story deserve an applause. I didn’t see it coming. I never expected it to turn it that way. What I’ve known for 4 books, from Assassin’s Blade to Heir of Fire, is all a lie and it ends up like that? LIKE THAT, THAT, that I don’t want to accept because it is so painful and I cannot accept the fact that those decisions are for protecting him. I really hate Sarah J. Maas, she is so good that I always anticipating her books and when I’m done reading, I wanted more. I badly wanted more and I can’t wait for another year or two. I don’t mind if she will write 10 books a year, it would be great and I will buy everything she writes. She is that good!

My conclusion? If you haven’t read this series. Start now. You will never go wrong with her and her books. It’s magical. She has this writing style that you wanted to read more and continue going until you drop your eyes dead. She has this way of describing everything in detail that you end up imagining and falling in love in their worlds, wishing that you could have been there, witnessing everything that is happening in the book. Again, you could never go wrong with her.

“I am going to destroy everything you love.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows

“Hello, Sam,” she breathed onto the river breeze.”
― Sarah J. MaasQueen of Shadows



3433047Sarah J. Maas is the New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of the Throne of Glass series (Queen of Shadows, Book 4, will be out in September 2015), as well as the A Court of Thorns and Roses series (out 5/5/15).

Sarah lives in Bucks County, PA, and over the years, she has developed an unhealthy appreciation for Disney movies and bad pop music. She adores fairy tales and ballet, drinks too much tea, and watches an ungodly amount of TV. When she’s not busy writing, she can be found exploring the historic and beautiful Pennsylvania countryside with her husband and canine companion.

Book Review: The Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay

16151178I started reading Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay, I believed, last month and sync read the novel with Erika and of course, as slow as I was reading the book, as busy the Royal Polar Bear was, she finished the book way weeks from now and I just finished the book today. Barbra and Dianne, friends of mine from a bookish group, convincing me to read the book. They already knew me; I love books especially in romance, those stories with the painful process of falling in love or a tragedy – either way, as long as it is sad, painful and incinerating, I will read it. One major reason why I chose to read Sea of Tranquility is that it was read and recommended by Colleen Hoover, herself.

The book started with an excerpt, an excerpt that made me read it and continue as the story flows through my eyes and keeps on taking and accepting and reading the book. Unfortunately, it took me weeks to finish the book because of school works. And the good side was that I completely absorb every painful thought and powerful lines. And the bad side? I forgot the very important part where I asked Erika to elaborate what happened on the ending. Sea of Tranquility is a story of Nastya, a girl where Katja Millay describes as a loner, wears complete make-up, doesn’t talk, anti-social for short and same goes with Josh. Josh is an anti-social and keeps on working for professors because of craftsmanship, he loves everything that needs to be fix or something that going to build.

“I hate my left hand. I hate to look at it. I hate it when it stutters and trembles and reminds that my identity is gone. But I look at it anyway, because it also reminds me that I’m going to find the boy who took everything from me. I’m going to kill the boy who killed me, and when I kill him, I’m going to do it with my left hand.”

I cringe. Katja really has done a great job of bringing the mysteriousness of her character. At the very first chapter of the book and as I go through, I asked a lot of questions about myself. “What happened to her?”, “Is Nastya mute?”, “Why is she covering herself with a lot of make-up?”, there are a lot of questions would come up with but I never thought of what could the title mean. All I feel while reading this book are mixture of emotions; lost, love, fear, pain, sadness, loneliness, loathing, a little bit of joy but at the end I still feel the overflowing emotions that I wanted to cry, if I’m not on the public reading the book, probably I’m crying while reading every phrase that tainted my soul.

“The adults are even worse because they love to make their dumbass comments about how well I’m doing; how well adjusted I’ve become; how well I handle everything. As if they have any clue. The only thing I’ve learned to do well is avoid, but everyone would rather believe it’s all good. That way they can crawl back under the shelter of that rock they live under. The one they think death can’t see them.”

If fictional character were real, I will be hugging both Nastya and Josh, I could feel the longing in their thoughts – especially Josh, all the people in his life is going away, dying and for the first time there is someone who sticks with him even if it was hard at first and eventually, became comforting. And for the first time, someone is backing out with his life. It was so hard for him, it was really hard – I’m trying to put myself in Josh’s place, I don’t know if I can keep on moving on with life. It feels wrong at every turn, it was like you are not supposed to love, you are meant to hope and hurt as many times you don’t expect to be hurt. Everyone from his life, withdrew, never return. It was so sad and painful at the same time. People tend to go away but what if the people who go away, don’t go away but really dies? It so suffocating that even if the last one, wanted to get out of your life – and the worst part is, she is not really dying, maybe she was dead in inside but she is still existing and wanted to disappear on his life. IT. SO. FUCKING. HURTS.

“It’s not that I wanted to be dead, I just felt like I should be. Which is why it’s hard when everyone expects you to be grateful simply because you’re not.”

There are a lot of things that happened in this book. The self-loathing is so outrageous that I need to breathe on every sentence that I was reading and the characters were dropping on me. I was drowning at the same time suffocated and empty because the words are so deep that I can feel everything. The emotions, the feelings, everything. The novel may be slow-paced but it will drive you crazy in every chapter, there is the element of romance but it was a kind of romance you wouldn’t expect. I was trying to predict and theorize while I was reading and it turns out that I was wrong. While reading the stories and reaching the point of revelations – I don’t know what to think of anymore. I wanted to hate Nastya but I couldn’t do that. I wanted to hate Josh but I couldn’t do that too. I wanted to choose who is more fucked up from the two and I couldn’t choose. And I thought, is this how things going? Two broken souls crossing paths?

“…there really isn’t a way to explain how a person you’ve seen every day of your life just isn’t anymore. Someone just hit Delete and she’s gone. I had a hard time grasping that I could come home one night and find that the person who was laughing and hugging me that morning just stopped existing. I didn’t believe it was possible. I didn’t want to believe it was possible…”

And nothing will get resolved?

Crazy this book was, dark as it seems, this novel is truly an outstanding novel. I learn a lot in this book. Sometimes you can’t lift up yourself, there is someone who is meant to lift you up and give light to your darkest days. There may be a lot of challenges, self-loathing, struggles and pain but all those feelings and emotions are part of life. Maybe you died and a greater part of yourself has been taken from you but it doesn’t mean that you lost life itself, it just means that you need to hold on tightly and let the life flow in you. You may lose yourself and identity in the process– you probably don’t know yourself anymore because a part of life is so unforgettable that you just wanted to be ruin. Don’t. There are a lot of things in life to see and to appreciate, there are a lot of things that needed to be seen by your eyes and to love. You may be ruined and lost, you may be disappearing and sad, but there is one thing that you keep on doing because you love it. Hold on to that. You may lose but you were given second chances and even if there is one remaining reason that you are still existing, don’t give up because who knows, that one thing that keeps you on moving is you are also the reason why he keeps on existing.

“Maybe one day you’ll come back. Maybe you never will and that’ll suck, but you can’t keep doing this. The blame and the self-loathing and the bullshit. I can’t watch that. It makes me hate you for hating yourself. I don’t want to lose you. But I’d rather lose you if it means you’ll be happy. I think if you come back with me today, you’ll never be okay. And I’ll never be okay if you aren’t. I need to know that there’s a way for people like us to end up okay. I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay, maybe even good, and it’s out there and we just haven’t found it yet. There’s got to be a happier ending than this, here. There’s got to be a better story. Because we deserve one. You deserve one. Even if it doesn’t end with you coming back to me.”

― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility



Katja Millay graduated with a degree in film and television production from New York University’s Tisch School of the Arts and has worked as a television producer and film studies & screenwriting teacher. Her debut novel The Sea of Tranquility was a recipient of the American Library Association’s Alex Award and was named one of the Best Books of 2013 by the School Library Journal. She currently resides in Florida with her family.