Book Review: An Ember in the Ashes by Sabaa Tahir

emberintheashes_jkt_5-1Manipulative, Stunning, Heart-Breaking and Threatening. This book completely exceeded my expectations. I’ve never thought that I will be consumed by this novel in less than forty-eight hours and leaving me of wanting more. The story is destructive as its characters, you could sense the helplessness and the selflessness of the characters. I couldn’t fathom whether Sabaa Tahir is an evil sadist for inflicting pain towards her readers and loves to make her reader’s heart cry or just someone who is great with her work.

I was compelled and awestruck by the author’s magnificent and beautiful writing style that made me yearn for a character’s hurtful thoughts. At first, I was too confused what was happening, then pieces by pieces, through the story you would appreciate when they interconnected – it was swift, carefully written and gruesome plan for a story. I hate the Empire on the story, I hate the resistance — what’s left for me to love? The broken soldiers of the empire produce? Or the victims of a vast tragedy that their soul was bound to serve the nobility? It was too painful. I couldn’t fathom how did Sabaa Tahir write this book, I couldn’t understand why would she write something horrible and yet beautiful at the same time.

“This life is not always what we think it will be.” Cain says. “You are an ember in the ashes, Elias Veturius. You will spark, burn, ravage and destroy. You cannot change it. You cannot stop it.”

I underestimated this book. I was so caught up with the story that I was emotionally unstable whether I should be rooting for Laia to find her purpose and to fix her mind or to Elias, to find his freedom and fight for the higher position of the Empire, or to Keenan, who keeps bugging me, that he only wanted what was best but given a limited options, he can’t comply with what he want but for what he needs, or to Helene, who only wanted was happiness, mixed feelings course through her, and completely betray her heart for someone she loves.

“Loving you is the worst thing that has ever happened to me — worst than the Commandant’s whippings, worse than the Trials. It’s torture, Elias.”

Why do authors need to write this kind of book? It was too broken, too fragile for the readers to take – it felt that the winds become storms in front of you without giving you a second thought, struck by a lightning and setting your flesh into a fire. It was terrifying, I could feel the characters into my minds, I could see myself as themselves, I could understand their misery, longing, and sorrows. I know. It feels like I’m writing a eulogy for a character but it does feel, at least, for me.

“Fear is only your enemy if you allow it to be.”

I’ve felt a little joy, I would say that there are some butterfly scenes but those are just least, It was not the focus of the author, which is I’m so grateful for. It looks like she tries to focus more on the story and the myths of the story. How everything was manipulated by one another and how actions by the peers affect the outcome of the events. It was simply aprraisal, I couldn’t imagine what was running on Sabaa Tahir’s mind when she was writing this book. It was fast-paced and you could easy fall in love with the characters – which is I’m warning you right now, that, that would be the mistake you could have done when reading this book.

My ratings: 5 stars!

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About the Author

7770873.jpgSabaa Tahir grew up in California’s Mojave Desert at her family’s 18-room motel. There, she spent her time devouring fantasy novels, raiding her brother’s comic book stash and playing guitar badly. She began writing An Ember in the Ashes while working nights as a newspaper editor. She likes thunderous indie rock, garish socks and all things nerd. Sabaa currently lives in the San Francisco Bay Area with her family.


Cover Reveal: Oak & Mistletoe by J.Z.N. McCauley

Oak & Mistletoe: A Novel by J.Z.N. McCauley


 A Druid Curse, A Prophesied Love, A Consuming Vengeance…

 Catherine Green, along with her twin sister and older brother, travels to Ireland on a college graduation trip. Her vacation takes a permanent turn when she lands her dream job at an art and history museum on her beloved Emerald Isle. She meets a handsome stranger named Bowen, an expert of sorts on local ancient studies. Though their first meetings are turbulent at best, Catherine finds herself drawn to him.

 Unaware that she is the key to breaking a hidden curse, Catherine unleashes the evil madman Conall and his druid followers, imprisoned since ancient times. Tragedy and loss ensue, sprouting within Catherine the deep seeds of rage that thrust her onto the damaging path of vengeance. Confused by the enigma that is Bowen, his mixed signals, and her own feelings, she is swept away with him on an unexpected journey surrounded by myth and long-forgotten knowledge. In order to stop the evil plans of Conall and his reunified army, Catherine must entwine her fate with peril. Her survival is trivial to her as long as Conall dies. She’ll do whatever it takes.
Release Date: October 11th, 2016


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Author Bio:J.Z.N. McCauley resides in lovely New England, where she loves wearing jackets and boots in the unpredictable weather there. She is a wife and mother who enjoys life to the fullest. Also, being a nerd across many genres is something she expresses openly.McCauley spends most of her spare time writing, drawing, or reading. She loves archeology, mythology, history, music and many other forms of art as well. Always having a variety of interests and talents, she could never pick just one. When the chance pops up to travel to any of her favorite places, she takes way too many pictures. Otherwise she is exploring a mystical land in a daydream. Which all provides fuel to her immense joy of writing.

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Book Review: It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover

27362503By far, It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover, is the heaviest, realistic and most painful among her books. Naked Truth: I felt so much numbness when I started reading It Ends With Us. I couldn’t get connect with the book and yet I could feel the intensity of the characters emotions. You feel me? The feeling when you are so numb reading a certain line that you wanted to retreat to your own cave so you wouldn’t felt more pain than what you have felt? It was disastrous, horrible, terrifying and beautiful all at the same time. I didn’t expect Colleen Hoover will write something like this. Something that will make me feel shit and will leave a huge impact on my chest. It hurts. It fucking hurts. I thought I knew what was pain before not until this book. Not until It Ends With Us.

This book is the manifestation of bold and brave, something to remember and to ponder on. It was magnificent and truthful. It will leave you a mark on your chest, on your mind, on your heart and probably on your soul too. It was breaking me into pieces, slowly, painfully, and when I was so lost, I didn’t know that it will heal me at some point and tear me apart all over again.

I never knew that both emotions, love, and hate, go hand in hand. I never knew that both feelings could exist at the same time, at the same moment, and at the same person. It was so painful. IT FUCKING HURTS. I couldn’t imagine how a person can handle so much emotion, so much stress, so much pain all in once and suffering from longing and agony and care. Deep inside, my soul is crying for Lily, for everyone. And I couldn’t do anything for them – just to cry my heart out.

I just felt the most difficult decision that a people could have done in her entire life. And I just witnessed both beautiful and ugliness at the same time, shaking the presence of my mind, I just experience a lifetime of commitment, of sacrifice for someone you love and for someone you wanted to protect. It taught me to fall in love, to live with my decision, to stand on my principles, to protect those who I love and especially that even if you wanted to save a relationship; if it isn’t meant to be, even if you love that person so deeply that eventually will hurt both of you, it isn’t meant to be. There are so much in life and loving a person doesn’t mean you’ll ended up together, sometimes love exist for two people even if they aren’t together.

It Ends With Us, taught me to forgive – to fix my mistake and give options. It was entirely new. It was new kind of pain, a pain that could last for a lifetime. And If I will ask if I will read this book all over again? I would totally say yes. This book is full of life lessons. An eye-opener to a lot of people. And I know in myself, that, maybe not today nor tomorrow, but to my future self – that I will do anything just not to end up my future relationship like that.

To Colleen Hoover, I don’t know how to thank you enough for writing this book. No words. No descriptions. No feelings could portray this book. I just wanted to Thank you. Just Simply, Thank you for writing this book and being the voice for those people who can’t speak for themselves. And please don’t cry anymore. Beautiful ladies shouldn’t be crying. Just keep swimming.

PS: If you are going to ask me which book is my favorite among Colleen Hoover’s book? I would say, It still Slammed.

My ratings: 5 stars! Definitely.